I feel like I can only write a lengthy, well-worded blog entry when I’m pissed off about something or about to cry onto the keyboard. Which makes it a little tricky because I’m having a pretty good day. Driving In The Dark came out just over 5 months ago, and things have been pretty peachy over on the MB side. But, I’d be lying if I said it’d been all roses since.
The summer tour dates were an amazing, exhausting, fulfilling and inspiring time. I can’t believe the group of people I’ve had the good fortune of working with. Jess, Keane, Kurtis and Nich have put their whole hearts into our live show and it definitely shows. I did my best to lead by example and keep my head above water, and I didn’t always succeed. But in the places that I couldn’t step up, I had 4 other amazing people to fall on. Pretty special.
I’ve gone through the ringer with my emotions. Anger, elation, mania, downright depression and everything in between. I’ve explored the vast expansion of my physical health and discovered, maybe even implemented, some moderate boundaries that I’m trying to adhere to. A solid 4 weeks away from shotgunning beers and brown liquor was a surprising reminder that I can have fun, execute shows and be an overall great human being without lubrication. I’m not going so far as to say I’ll be off the sauce forever, but for now, it doesn’t feel like it has an immediate place in my life, save for special occasions.
My tour-mobile died, and I found another one with the help of my friend Curtis in short order. You can now see the MB Band and additional cast members rolling around in the 2008 Dodge Grand Caravan aptly named Ruby for her bright red coat of paint. She runs like a champ and stows all the seats, is great on gas and fits a mattress in the back for solo excursions. Couldn’t be happier about that score.
We showcased at this year’s AmericanaFest in Nashville, TN and it was one heck of a time. We showcased at BreakOut West in Kelowna, BC shortly after and it was also one heck of a time. Really fun to show off the new band and batch of songs to new listeners.
But now as the touring season winds down, I’m reminded that my focus needs to sit squarely on writing. I’ve got a batch of tunes cooking in the oven (my super twisted mind.) Some have already hit the cutting board, some are still baking and some are in the prep process, needing slight recipe adjustments. You like that food metaphor? I’m hungry.
I spent most of my time during this busy stretch talking about how busy I am, constantly running from one thing to the next. No time for a sit down dinner without me needing to vent incessantly about how tired or worn out I was. Not taking care of myself, not taking care of the relationships in my life. I had a hard reality check from a close friend who reminded me to get my head up. Start looking after myself and the people I love. Give respect as much as I expect it. I’m very focused on that with my time off. I’m very focused on becoming a better human being and hopefully the music will take shape.
Whatever lies ahead, I can only go in with head bowed, thankful for all that has come and will continue to come if we keep working hard and hitting the pavement. I am so grateful for the massive support I’ve felt from family, friends, my team and bandmates and listeners near and far. The outpouring of love I’ve received is nothing short of humbling and it pushes me to deliver my best every show, every day. I am nothing without the support of the people around me.
That’s why I’m in such a good mood. Because I’m weirdly… content. I know that this too will pass quickly, but for now, I’m just remembering that there’s a whole whack of folks out in the world who hear my tunes and smile, and escape for a minute. A whole swarm of people who genuinely like what we’re doing and buy the tickets, the CD’s, the shirts and write us on Twitter to keep us going. It’s some kind of life we’re living, a little hectic for sure. But nothing short of incredible.
At least, that’s how I’m feeling today.
Much love to you all.
18.10 // Dekker Centre for Performing Arts, North Battleford SK
19.10 // The Lyric Theatre, Swift Current SK
20.10 // The Arden Theatre, St. Albert AB
w/ Skye Wallace
22.10 // The Dakota Tavern, Toronto ON